i've been seeing pdoc for 4 years now, and he is still sometimes a bit of a blur to me. i am getting good at remembering his hair style, general body shape etc... but his features are still blurry. it's very bizarre.

sunrise - it sounds like you may be a bit sad about not telling your family T the things you would have liked. maybe you could send him an email, or write a letter? i am sure he would appreciate receiving it, but more than anything - it'd be an opportunity for you to set things right in your mind.