I agree with Catherine (perhaps because that is my name as well?) It is very well possible that your anger was justified and understandable, the key is control. Try very hard to prevent other people from controling you by using your anger against you and life will be much better. I'm glad that your health scare worked out. I think that it's perfectly natural to put things in perspective when you're faced with something that could change life as you know it. Try to hang on to what's important in life. Mistakes the way we learn and grow. Good luck with the new job!