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I am so sorry this has happened. I can't believe he did that to you. If it were me the realationship would be completely severed and no going back even if I did still love him.

From all your other posts, it sounds like he is ABUSIVE. And you should not let his dx of bipolar be an excuse. There is no excuse for abuse.
It sounds like he is incapable of maintaining a loving realationship. That means he should not be in one until he is capable, if he ever is.

Plz don't go back to this man. You deserve so much better. Start thinking about yourself again. Start loving yourself and being gentle and kind with yourself.

I know I am coming on strong. But the only reason I am is because I care about you.
Please keep posting. We care. I care.