I'm new here. I've been suffereing from ocd for 11 years now. I got medical help 7 years ago. I take luvox and have gone through cognitive behavioral therapy.

I have many more good days than bad days. I've gotten better by about 75%. BUT, when I have a bad day (something happens that triggers my fears and anxiety), it hits me really hard.

I used to fear food borne germs. I have been able to get a handle on it. Since a few years ago, it's been rabies. That's my trigger, my fear, the thing that adds fuel to the ocd fire. In my mind every animal could or has rabies. Yesterday, I had my pup out for a bathroom break. She was close to something in the yard that flew or fluttered away. It wa a tan color. I kept trying to identify it but each time I got close enough, it flew/fluttered away. My pup didn't yelp, I did not see it in her mouth. I didn't see it near her, but in my mind is this: "I didn't see her not get near it, so she could have touched it. I didn't get a good look at what it was, so it must have been a rabid bat." The thoughts get worse from this point - believe me.

My husband has tried to help me, bless his heart. I was in a tear anxiety filled panic last night (the incident happened during the day.) I'm still obsessing over it. I've gone to bat, cricket and moth websites. It was most likely a large moth. I guess. Heck, maybe it was a mini alien from Venus. Yeah....it could have been that because I didn't get a chance to analyize it personally! It could have been anything but my ocd choose to tell me it was a rabid bat.

I'm sorry about going on and on about this.

My point in the subject title is this: If my husband took the pup out, he would not have given this fluttering/flying insect/thing a second thought. He would not have mentioned it. My ocd would not be having a field day with it. YES! Ignorance IS bliss...