I am in a great relationship with an intelligent and beautiful women, who of which I have been dated for almost 5 months now. Intially what started off as friends with benefits has rapidly turned into practically living with eachother (which I am completely fine with and actually enjoy). When we first began having sex, things were average at best. But shortly there after I began taking medication for my ADHD, which in turn caused me to get very nervous and anxious whenever there was a possibility of sex. This lead to numerous flops in the bedroom, me almost completely losing my libido and convincing myself that I have ED. Anyway, I am hypochondriac and have generalized anxiety which makes this situation practically impossible to ignore. So now whenever we are together I am constantly worried I will not meet her expectations, or live up to my prior performance. These moments of decline have also made me question my 'manhood', and my feelings for her. Both of which make me feel insecure and...well not confident in myself. Especially when I know that I do love her but am just to afraid to admit it just yet.
I have been prescribed levitra, and feel the need to use it only part of the time when anxiety is high...But would rather just get my mind right.
I dont know if this is of any significance, and if you have read this far-thanks, but this is my first 'real' relationship in almost 4 years where I have felt the need to be intimate rather than just a random one night stands or some weekend hook-up.
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