Well i do see a therapist n it helps for the time being then more triggers come along and yea its really hard... January is the person in this place that knows me best. She told me to get help with my drug n alcohol use... im an alcoholic i can barely make the day w/o at least one drink and im a major stoner... i can go the day w/o pot but not when im upset like now it would be nice to have some... I turn to those things when im depressed or just mad... i want to stop but im too addicted...