I often feel jealous as well just because she is so much more stable and together than i am. I feel jealous in a way, because she is the kind of woman I would like to grow up to be. Also, I'm jealous because of the "control" she has over me. I feel like if something happened, she would easily get over not seeing me in therapy anymore, but I feel like I would barely get over not being in therapy. I hope that makes sense.