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Jun 16, 2009, 11:34 PM
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dolphin elder
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 4,718
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I may be venting but I'm not saying anything that I would regret later ! I have extremely high functioning T.B.I.(Tramatic Brain Injury) I have one of those "spinal cord injuries" that doctors havn't seen before!gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrSo no help there!
I have fibro along with"Central Nerve Damge" meaning EVERY nerve coming out of my spianl cord is severly damaged. Then on top of that depending what &%$# doctor I go to one says no to "MS" another one says I definitly have MS. I was the "poster adult" for the face of MS when I lived in the south. Up in Upstate they don't treat me. I think that I have too many "problems." Now I'm battleing a brain tumor and there is a bunch of pain with that! Then I feel all my other Extreme Chronic Pain and constantly it seems like I"m staying in my 'imagery" or "visualizations." According to my DID I am majorly dissociating. But thanks to this particular forum and others as well that are all here.
But what is the hardest part for me to swallow, as I sit here in my wheelchair, constantly having skin breakdowns despite the fact I check constantly at least 4X a day. But what is even more _________ (can't find a word to describe my anger) is ALL the above, even cancer and who knows about the MS, IS all of it would be unnecessary if I would not have been ABUSED DAILY for I stil don't know why and it's over 30 yrs. So when I hurt so bad and I ache and I hurt all over, my mind just wants Freedom!
ThaCrew Thank-you for reading 
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