Dear Karen,
I am so sorry your heart aches like this. I know the feeling.
I agree with Jewls-make friends with little Manda, not emimies. I know from experience that you feel better when you have a young child, or anyone, look up to you. I feel like I got 'healed' pretty well last Monday in a session with our T. aAthough the pain will lesson, it will never go away compleatly. you just have to be strong.
We are friends to you.
Erik