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Old May 31, 2005, 09:01 PM
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I think most of us have gone through this at one time or another with someone we are associated with. I know about a month ago, I was so mad because I can't figure out how to fix myself & all my docs didn't know how to help either. My anger was building & building & building. Finally on a phone conversation with my Pdoc, I reached my limit & fired him while yelling about how mad I was because no one cared or knew what was needed to help. I was mad because I was being sent in circles & I was going in circles myself. I just needed to blow up (which included throwing things all around my home). How childish for a 52 yr old. A couple of days after my blow up, I sat back & tried to put together the pieces, & realized that I no longer had a pdoc....oops. I called up, & with my tail between my legs, asked him to forgive me. He did, & we are back to a working relationship where I still am in charge of myself & what I need, but he is there for support.

Guess we all have to go through this at times, then when we back off, we realize what is was that we really had & the good that was there even though we didn't see it at the time. I can't kick myself for what I did...I needed to do it to make a statement, but after it is all said & done, I realized what I really had & didn't want to live without it either.

We all learn from the things we do,
Debbie
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