My dad passed away on June 3rd. We talked to him late on June second, about six hours before he passed away. He slipped down the stairs, hit his head, and died instantly. He was 69. This is the first time someone I'm really close to died, and I was lucky in a sense not to have to experience death until 31.

I had started going to a therapist because of a crappy job and relationship help ad had seen her three times before he passed away. When he died my mom and I got on a plane and flew back to our home country where he still lived. That was two weeks ago and I leave in two weeks.

I e-mailed the therapist asking to have a dialog with her, that I knew it wouldn't be free, that I knew it wouldn't be confidential because of the nature of the Internet, but that I had things I didn't want to talk about with my family (guilt, pain, etc) and that I didn't want to go through this alone. She said she only worked in person and told me to journal. She knows I have abandonment issues as I've told her how a previous therapist dropped me (about three years ago, and I think because she didn't know what to do with me and I have a kind of feeling I reminded her of herself).

Would you go back to this therapist or find somebody new?