I think I understand more why I do it, nothing seems to go right in my life. Everytime I cut you feel a sense of relief, I guess it is my way of going on with life.... the pain fits the way you feel. I feel that I must be punished for what is going wrong in my life, that in some way it is my fault. Just hope I can find other ways of dealing with the feelings, one day maybe, but can't see it in the early future.