I have the same problem in utah. I used to be an outgoing open minded person, I could smile and joke around and be myself, but since I have lived here I have become a recluse anti-social paranoid cynical person. I feel like hiding most of the time. Im glad to know someone else feels the way I do. When I try to explain this to non-utahns they don't understand the high expectations and standards utahns must achieve in order to be accepted.