((((Debbie)))), sorry about your father...

About the therapist, maybe it is better if you see her in person. About the T in the past, I had a similar experience... This last year has been very hard for me for many reasons so I asked for a T through social security(free). The first day he judged me, which I think as unethical, and refused to give me treatment, said that what happened to me is because of my own decisions in life,etc. I think this is why many of us go to a T, because sometimes we can't cope with everything, and make wrong decisions... That is exactly why we need a T, not to make decisions about our life or tell us what to do, or tell us that what we do is wrong, etc, etc.. we just need somebody to listen to our thoughts and help us just to oversee ourselves in a different light and in a more positive way to break the negative circle.

What I mean with this is that don't give up! Maybe you have to keep on searching for a good T. Someone that doesn't feel uncomfortable with you or your emotions. We all have dark emotions, and not everybody is fit to go through them with you. See you Rap