I know, I know.

I've had an exhausting day and I know for a fact that I've overworked myself far too much again. A friend called me from Manchester to say that she was homeless. She got here yesterday at 7pm and stayed with me in my flat for the night. She's staying as long as she needs alongisde her boyfriend and I'm helping them to get housing. It's been an exhausting day and lots of people have been nasty both to me and her boyfriend and I'm sick of it. I just felt like crying everytime I stopped.

So, I pushed on all day running from place to place not stopping between 8am-6pm. I've only just stopped and I know I should've given myself this break long ago, but I just... Something inside me says I need to help these people and i feel good for doing it already. I just know I'm letting it all build up too much. They're really grateful for my help and stuff and keep thanking me, which is nice. I've not had people appreciating me in a while (IRL!!!)

I can just feel my shoulders are tense, I have a headache, sore legs and keep coughing. I just want to stop walking everywhere and lie in bed for one day, or just sit around all day tomorrow, but no... I can't let myself because I'm doing breakfast club at 10-11am and meeting Connor at midday, then I've got to get some alcohol for the chilling out evening (YAY!!!) and some nibbles, then I've got to go and get Rick and Cheryl (friend and boyfriend) from the train station and get the settled in again and possibly go to the jobcentre with them or something. GAAAAHHHHH!

I'm tired... Anywhere safe that I can sleep??

Cheryl reminded me, when I started to shake and get anxious and upset and angry, to take my medication.. I forgot.. But I took it and I still don't feel hugely better, but I guess I just need sleep. But then.. I'm worrying too much to get any sleep...

I actually feel like dying because today's been so hard and it's taken its toll on me and just made me tired and upset because of the people being nasty. One of them being my old key support worker