As some people might know here I've been off school for about 3 weeks now. By then when I'm coming back I'm going to do better with home work, friends and me. Also have a new hair cut about time! Mostly been having a hard time being depressed can make you forget about the good stuff to see in life. I've been down for 3 years now of me teenage life finally seeking for help and in 7 days it will arrive. A lot has changed to me I moved switched schools even went to a first funeral for my granpa. I have been half way near to death before but I never have give up my youth with hope. Also joining sport clubs like badminton, jogging, gym. Seeing a consellor has helped a lot made me think even more think twice about life. So when I get back to school I have to stand up to everyone, which is going to be the biggest step ever that I took before. It's nice to know that some people plus my friends miss me. I know someone would ask me "Why wernt you at school for 3 weeks?" I would say I had the flu because I did for quite a lot and maybe because of somethine else!" I know that there will be some rumors about me and me being away. Some people even thought I was leaving school. Nope lol I'll be back sooner than you know it haha. Hoping to be put on anti-depressants because I know that my emotions can take control of me. Proberly when I get back even better than before I will give loads of hugs to everyone because I missed then too. Even going to give my ex a hug though we have been out twice before. It could work out again who knows. With this other boy I really use to like, I've now realised that I like him enough to say I don't like him. If that makes any sense at all? I'm going to take a deep breath when I walk through the doors of secondly school. I have been bullied before there because I was the new girl, shy, quiet, too nice. But now when I'm comming back I will be me and not some else who I dunno. Looking back its been almost a year at my new school. I've met loads of people in and out of school. Which are all friendly and nice like you guys here. Also noticed that I have broken my catipillar shell and spring into a butterfly. Its time to breath on my own! Just need a wish me good, luck when I come back to school please! (Thanks for reading this all or looking at this post)