I so much appreciate the support from everyone--no matter what your view, it is helpful. I am moving ahead for the most part with only brief, intermittent storms (usually in the car when I'm alone and I think about my lover with his new girlfriend--man that hurts). It helps to interact with others instead of having it hidden and grieving alone, pretending nothing is wrong. I have copied/pasted images representing my new life (goals) that I look at every day. I tried to upload it but its too big apparently...anyway I feel I am making some good strides ahead but I still need your support until I'm completely out of the woods. Thanks!