Yesd, I know the rest of that story. I suppose that statement makes sense about extending the time before I crash and stuff. I'll think on that one..

I've flown about twice I think, so yeah I get what you mean. I know I have difficulty applying that principle to myself. I guess it's because I don't feel deserving of it or something. Mehh. Idk..?

Been cooking all day with Connor today had lots of fun doing that and now have a sausage casserole slow cooking and a vegetable crumble ready to go in the oven not to mention 2 pizzas, chips and a mammoth fruit salad all ready to be gobbled up by the people coming over tonight. I decided it's my joint Birthday and housewarming party. Good idea, eh? Still have to figure stuff out with C and R though so still got that buzzing about my head so still stressing about that. Grrrr. Abi's being an arse still so I = not a happy bunny!!! She was rather rude to me this morning. Hmph. She'll get her comeuppance when I feel it's due

I received a Birthday card this morning from The Adoptive Family and that got me going a bit, could feel deep down the bad feelings rising up and just bubbling away inside me. I don't know what it was really. i guess Ifeel really guilty and nasty and such a ***** for not being with Bryony for such a special, big, important Birthday you know? The big 18. Sigh. Sucks. And I hate not being with her because I feel like I'm
the one that's doing wrong by not being with her.. I'm going to send her a card, though. Whether she sends me one or not, I'll send her one and I'll text her on the day. I guess that's all a twin in this situation can do, right? I'm just. Stuck with feeling guilty