I was really bad today. I haven't cut for a while and I did today. I really hate myself. I am kicking myself in the *** as we speak. I thought there wasn't another way to deal with what my dad told me today. It started when my older brother called and said that they werebeing evicted in a week and him, his wife, and child needed somewhere to stay for a bit. There is no room at my dad's house for anymore semi permenant people let alon two and a child. Then when he hung up on my brother he started in on me. He said that i am on a high amount of perscriptions and that he really didn't want me to be here. He would rather have me somewhere else, but because I'm "sick" I can stay here. He made me cry for an hour off and on. I decided that the only way for my tears to stop is to let the blood flow instead. I cut on my thighs and on my arms. I am wearing a sweatshirt and pants so that I can hide it. I just really hate myself for doing it now. I have been trying and before i knew it I cut all over again. I HATE ME!!!