i dont mind you posting at all...

i guess i fear both...
i dontknow anymore.
i fear intimicy but i also fear support and people helping me.
i fear...
i fear love i guess too.
i fear a lot im a baby. -.-
put my walls up. so used to them being there. push people away. dont want them to deep inside. but cant really stop myself from doing it. its like a reaction/?? does this make sense?

i really want to hurt myself right now.
im crying little tears right now but can feel them ready to run down my face and not stop.
cant cope with this for goodness sake.