((((((((((((((((((((((wantto))))))))))))))))))))) what can i say? you're so special to me. you understand me so well. thank you for saying that you think i'm moving forward. it doesn't fee like it.
i think it doesn't feel like it because i actually am. does that make sense? before i wouldn't have known that i was doing badly, nevermind why. i have an awareness that i've never had. thru that awareness, i see what has broken down in all of this.

so i think i'm doing better enough to know how badly i'm doing

thank you for being you, wantto.

kd