Sorry for the overload of posts on my part....I'm just going through a really hard time in T.

I have another appointment tomorrow, and we're going to talk in detail about the incident. She told me Friday that she would like to when I'm ready, and only when I'm ready. I told her I want to go ahead and get it over with, because it's not going to get any easier to talk about, and the sooner I get it out in the open, the better it will be for me overall. So she said that we would discuss it tomorrow.

I'm so scared, because this is going to be EXTREMELY hard to talk about. 1 because of the personal nature of it, and 2 because there is a lot of TMI in it that I do not know how to discuss. I'm not worried about judgment, because she has assured me that her office is a totally safe place to discuss this without fear of judgment.

Like I said in my last post, I'm scared to relive the situation again. I'm so scared that I'm going to break down right there, and nothing will get accomplished if I'm emotionally distant.

I'm scared of getting in there, totally dissociating, and then not getting anything done at all.

Right now, I just need some e-hugs and support, if there is any to spare.