I started seeing her about 2 yrs ago. Then I stopped cause everything was going well. I started back again a few months ago because my family Dr. thought that I needed to. Not much exciting until she remarked that I never mentioned high school. I'm 50+ and that triggered me not remembering most of high school. We explored some of the things I talked about and I said that I sometimes wonder if I had multiple personalities because of some of the things that went on. It was never "me" that did things. But it's been over 15 yrs since any real episodes. Little ones but nothing major. Now things seem all stirred up and I feel like I am going nuts!! Somewhere inside there is a really happy little girl (Deedee) that everyone is trying to protect. Dee comes out when she thinks that Deedee or anything or anyone else is threatened. Dee got burned this time and really hurt. Now she blames herself for what happened and is shutting down and talks about hurting herself. I am too happy with my life right now. Have a wonderful husband, 2 sons and 4 dogs. I won't let her hurt herself, but she is so very sad and hurt. I tried the journaling. I think she wants to be able to talk about this, but when she is this hurt she won't talk. I do for her, but it doesn't help.