Jayz, is this from a game or some kind of religion or a book? Or are you just making this up? If you are not getting fanatical about this, or paranoid or depressed, then I guess this is cool if it helps you.

It does sound a wee bit... schizcophrenic, imo - the way I'm "hearing" this from you. So if it is causing you to feel strange, hear voices, see visions, become fanatic, parnoid, depressed, suspcious or obsessed, I would suggest you go seek medical health immediately.

I hope you are fine and just have an over active imagination or found a really cool way to find meaning in your life.