Monty,

Just because you may need to go back on meds. does not mean you have failed. These things come in cycles and sometimes it is so much harder than other times.

This doesn't mean you can't cope any more it just means it is time for learning new and better ways of coping. The meds will help keep you safe until you learn those.

When a person has been abused it is sometimes hard to accept that we are not in total control of our lives and thoughts and emotions. Going on meds for me kind of drove home the point that I am not in total control. But it was a healthy step and choice to make.

Please do what will keep you safest.

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