I will pay attention to what is going on in my life when I have those types of dreams again .

As for taking a boat, canoe, cruise, pondtune.... No way.

That in it's self means I have no control over my own situation - that I am at the hands of others. The same goes for buses, or long trips with someone else driving. Actually just in the city I don't want anyone to drive me.
Yet there are places to go - I go then come home in an anxiety attack.