Well you do have some HOPE because you have me and I CARE about you....if I can hang onto this earth and stay alive so can you....do not give up...stay strong....the people here at the forum are here to help and love and encourage you...they have kept me safe a lot of times so far...doesnt mean I am "not" fighting the S word right now myself...because I am BIG time.. ..but it helps me to talk to others that are thinking of doing it and helping them stay safe. ..it keeps me safe too....so keep talking to us ok....PLEASE????