I was in a support group a couple of years ago and we were asked what we would say to our fathers on father's day if we could. When it was my turn I told the group exactly how I felt and what was on my mind. I said something like "I hope he is burning in hell" (my dad passed away well over a decade ago). The group later shared what I said with a larger group. They were all shocked and angered by what I said. I guess they wanted me to say " oh dear father how I love and miss you so!"