I know I just saw my T last night. After what I did last week, then giving in to hormonal cravings which were only dramatically intensified because of my habits, I started to feel "fat" from all the calories/fats/salt/etc that I ate from those wonderful hormones. I am still awaiting the monthly but things are starting to change over and with probably the stress of T knowing now about me taking pills of various sorts at times with the eating habits, I think that in addition to the weight thing is making for a little more stress. I want to take some things, but I don't know how to fight it. I don't know how to distract the thoughts because everything goes back to it. Plus those dreams I've been having almost every night is probably adding some stress, too. I didn't mention the dreams to my T. I just felt anxious talking to him because of the talk of me taking those pills and stuff. I haven't been able to think right when I am there lately. I really want to take more of those pills. What do you guys do when you have cravings to take pills (like lax, diuretic, etc)?