Welcome bgrar
Good for you to take that first big step of making your appointment. Be proud of yourself as that is the hardest step to take.
You are going through a lot right now and you have found a great group of people to be there for you. Keep posting and let your feelings come out.
We are all here for you.

Heather
"The Pessimist complains about the wind, the Optimist expects it to change and the REALIST adjusts his sails." ~~~author unknown