((((Shangrala))))) (((Rainbowzz))

I just want to hug you all together, cry together, laugh together, be MYSELF with you guys...be friends in the truest sense of the word..

I relate soo much to your story....my mother was abusive, my father would not help me, they just kicked me to the curb..

..I had been fired from close to seventy jobs, all for small, strange reasons such as "There is just some thing different about you"

No help from my millionaire father, just the food stamps thing..

Everyone told me to 'just go on disability..' stop trying to attempt to work..

I didn't. I started waitressing at a little family run diner, and BLOSSOMED...everyone started to believe in me, the me I always was, but human resource people could not see..

Then I went to nursing school, my Dad being a doctor, was pleased and began helping me financially.

Although I decided nursing was not for me, I started keeping jobs such as substitute teaching, after school care, for years.

Now I am getting my master's in education to be a regular teacher!

As far as my abusive mother, I met with her and grilled her for all the verbal abuse, to the point SHE was scared instead of ME always being terrified, always hearing that voice that I am nothing and will never be anything according to my Mom.

She had done a lot of financial damage, told disablity when I got it that I was 'too mental' to handle my own money, she became my 'payee' (worst system in the world) and proceeded to put my utilities in my name (They were in dad's name) (he had no problem with that) proceeded to hike the rent to my dad $200, that left me $10 a month from the disability..

when i called her starving she said not to call her.

well I confronted both of them last night & the utilities are going back in my dad's name (yeah!! I can eat more than just ramen noodles for a while!!)

the rent is going back down, too..

the private psychiatrist that my dad always paid for (mom forced me to pay for him)

is now getting picked up by my dad once more

all by being assertive.....a quality I never had...until I realized it got you far..

I asserted my way from being fired the last 2 times they tried to fire me for 'swiveling in my chair" ( it was a swivel chair what are you supposed to do)

Family is US here at psychcentral, we are seen for who we are HERE

I feel your beauty, rainbowzz & shangrala we all 3 have such inner beauty

and certain assholes just do not see it or can comprehend it..

May our beauty live on & on...in friendships, those we MAKE family...