kd,

for someone who is usually the together person(s) for other ppl now is a time for you to find out what that is like.....time for you to let go just a bit and continue allowing whatever emotions need to come out to come out. I hear your fear about the acting out. I thnk this is a time when folks around you in life need to cut some tremendous slack and let what happens happen.

You have so many memories all mixed up together in there it is no wonder the confusion going on.

Sounds like the yo yo time of things with sudden moods and then just as suddenly total lack of emotion too.

Keep on keepin' on sweetie. No one is asking you to be back to speed or on your best game. We'll give you a day or two....

(((kd))) what a long draining emotional journey you've just returned from. welcome back and take your time please.