nothing to feel stupid about monty.

Let me get one things out of the way here...............YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!!

Being able to cope or manage is great and if life right now is such that you are not able to do so w/o the assistance of meds then that is how it is.

You know how icky it feels to not be able to cope and the darkness and such that comes on once the avalanche begins........so you're being wise to head this off before it gets any worse. Commend yourself/ves for that! Smart thinking to prevent further decline.

I can fully understand not wanting to go to T or the lab. T is helpful and a safe place for you so I hope you were able to get there. As for the lab? well.......I guess it is necessary. I hope they gave you cool bandages like insects or dinosaurs or (my godschildrens favourite) spongebob! eek!!

If you do choose to hide under a rock perhaps you could holler to fuzzybear to see if her den has room as it sounds much more comfortable than the underside of a rock.

safe hugs for a hiding monty (((((monty_girl))))))