Hi there
Welcome to our forums,
You said you want to be able to talk to people about this but sometimes you just think they don't want to listen or you'll scare them because you'll sound obsessive. . .
Well, not here you won't, you talk about it here if you wish there are plenty of people that won't mind at all to listen, and that is what support forums are for There are many of us that are dealing with the same or similar things you are and together we can all make these emotions, depressions, stress and anxieties a much lighter load to carry.
These forums became a refuge from the world around me that just did not understand, talking with members here you'll will find most of us do understand and may even be able to share some of their ways of getting through this.
You did the right thing making an appt. to get professional help, it is the best way to go in order for you to find out exactly what and if you have a disorder and if necessary what meds. you may need to get the chemistry back on the right track, it won't hurt, knowing this alone alleviates a lot of stress of wondering what is wrong, giving you a direction of what you will need to do. If this is your fisrst time going to therapy and/or a pdoc, you may feel nervous and all but it will go away, especially once you meet the person you'll be working with.
Take care, and know you are welcome
"darkeyes"

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON