I HATE this. I bumped up against a boundary. That almost never happens - in fact, the only times it has happened, it's been about something silly (like the time I begged him to let me wear his watch!).

So, I had session yesterday, and something was wrong with T's back. He was moving really gingerly and was obviously in pain. He told me he was going to the doctor today. I asked him how it happened and he kind of waved it off, so I dropped it because we had a LOT to cover in session.

Today I asked him to tell me what the doctor said....and he told me that he has a big support system, and that I don't have to worry, and that I need to focus on me, and that the only time he'll tell me about his health is when it makes him act different in session so I am not confused.

I TOTALLY get it. BUT!!! My mind goes to the worst case scenario..both of my parents had a pain, and my dad ended up dying 9 months later at the age of 56 and my mom ended up with breast cancer (now probably bone cancer) a couple of years after he died.

If T just has a pulled muscle or a slipped disc or whatever, I wish he would just tell me. He doesn't want me to think about it...but I feel like it's ALL I will think about unless he is just honest with me about it. What if something is really wrong?? I don't need to know the exact diagnosis, or what med he is taking, or who his doctor is, or whatever. I just need to know he is okay.

Boundaries confuse me sometimes. T has been super super super open, especially in the past few months, about things in his life. If he is pulling back now, that doesn't feel fair.

Blah! What do I do??