Congratulations on taking the step to get help! That is a huge accomplishment! I'm very sad when I hear of your struggles. These things can be controlled and helped by therapy in medication in a lot of people. I do know of cases where nothing helps, but you have an empty canvas in front of you to fill up with helps and recovery knowledge. I believe you will succeed with some outside help. I needed outside help and am doing much better. The therapy process has taken 7 years so far. I am growing every step of the way and get outside feedback from others saying they see growth. That's always good to get feedback because you can't always see your own growth. Keep that in mind as you endeavor on recovering. Sometimes you can't see growth in yourself, but it's still there.

Hope this helps.

Willow