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Jun 25, 2009, 10:54 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2006
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thank you pachyderm.
Guess i should have read peaches surrender post before i posted this. I think thats what i need. T or someone to take care of me.  ive also been thinking about what people were saying about not letting someone care for me and i realise that is really true. The first sign of someone caring for me and i disappear as fast as i can. A friend of mine has been asking me what events he can go to during the pride festival to show his support for me and i keep insisting he doesn’t have to come to anything unless he thinks he ll have fun and wants to go himself. Thats just a small example. I dont think my T would let herself care for me though. Too professional. Why do i run away so fast from what i desperately want?? If i looked for that from T and she didn’t give it to me what would i do? Id go mad. Even more mad than now. I dont know how to look after myself when i get to that place where i feel ... totally helpless and aching. I dont have it in me
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