I don't have a therapy appointment for 6 weeks all because I missed an appointment. Now I have to wait 6 weeks!!!

I can't wait that long... things are bad!!! My dissociation is really really really bad, I don't think my Lexapro or Risrperdal is working,
and I am having all kinds of urges, God I hope someone cancels their appointment and I get a call to come in!!!