at the last session i was crying again as usual and she offered tissues as usual and as usual i said no its ok cos i dont like taking things from other people if i can help it. then i rubbed the tears away on the sleeve of my suit and she said "biiv, use a tissue, dont use your suit". may sound weird but i thought it was really cool she said that. i guess she cared about my suit. she never ever ever tells me what to do. rarely even tells me what she thinks really but prefers to have me figure it out myself. it was good to know she cares enough to care about my suit and makes me think maybe she would actually tell me if she thought i was doing something i really shouldnt.

yes i know im totally nuts but i dont care. im keeping the nice feelings this gave me. lol.