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Originally Posted by chaotic13
Unfortunately, I haven't been really good at just Being and being aware of this when I am stress or attempting communicate what I'm thinking or wanting when in a live interaction. Instead of just relaxing and letting my thoughts flow freely between them, I tend to just react, hide them, and get defensive and fearful that I might say something or do something that is childish or inappropriate.
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It's only recently that I've been able to understand and sense when another part is....emerging? (can't think of a better word). I think before I would just switch, bam, and not know it.
Now I can sometimes feel it coming. Not always, but definitely sometimes. Everything looks different in the room...especially the blinds on the window. I can feel myself slipping away. When I fight it, I have a panic attack, which sucks. Today, I could feel it happening and I remember asking T to help me. Which is when he asked if I could just not fight it, and let whoever needed to be there be there.
He was so right. I left feeling calm and soothed and like part of me got what she needed. If I had fought it, I probably would have left feeling all spiraly and scared.
I wonder what would happen if you didn't fight it, chaotic??