3velniai,

I almost feel like it was more desperation on my part because I was so confused about what was going on. I finally had to speak up, it was not easy at all and I am still nervous to go in and see her. I am sure that will change with time.

Baby steps.....sometimes it taking a small thing you are really nervous about mentioning and then it gets a little easier to do.
One time I sat in the chair in thought to myself, whats the worst thing she could do if I said this? So I just blurted something out and she thanked me for sharing it with her.

Peaches,
Thank you.....Yes it does show she is trying and the fact that she apologized was really helpful to me. I'm still a little on edge about the whole thing but I think it will work out.

Tree and Rainbow,
Thank you both as well. I hope its the start of something good thats for sure!

Dreamseeker,
Yeah the speaking up about the anxiety attack was big for me. I don't like people to know those things. I feel I have to do everything on my own, that sparks from my childhood. I'm trying to learn how to let people in.

Chaotic,
Thank you. I am hoping this is the start of something healthy for me. Maybe just trusting her more. It may take a little time but I am working on it. I am glad that your rupture turned out for the better as well. Sometimes this stuff is so difficult.