@kiya,
thank you so much for replying. You are so strong. in time you will see it. and as always a good friend.

@jacq, Sorry i havent written but as my post says im not in a good place just yet....working on it.

@tumnus.....keep talking......all flattery is taken happily

Thank you all.

@ Abby.....that made me smile..ok a chuckle...thanks!