I really wish that I had someone I could confide in --- that's what brought me to this forum....I am alone here I quit the self-injury before I became a psych nurse; now everyone expects me to be so strong b/c "HEY, you're a Psych nurse now, you can handle anything!!!!"

I did bring up my recent thoughts to my T & he was going to implement some EMDR; but he listened to me close my eyes & go back to when I used to cut....I did, & when I opened my eyes he was sitting there shaking his head & saying that EMDR wouldn't work b/c he said that when I talked in great detail w/ my eyes closed, he said it sounded like poetry.
"Pristine" was the word he use. He send me home & told me to go back in my mind & write it out,so I did...I was writing so fast bewteen laundry loads that I cranked out 4 pages. Slammed it shut & said "I'll read it later"

I did,,,,,,,it scared the HELL out of me!!! It was beautiful! It sounded like a wonderful thing!!!!

Addt'l added problems; my ED has kicked back in.....and I started drinking again after 5 years of sobriety...I am very disgusted & ashamed of myself

ANY advice??????pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze! DAYZEE9