((((Susan888)))) you don't suck. I know that people do not understand depression, I for one suffer from this illness and I can not explain it. I can explain how I feel but I can't explain why. Maybe you could have a therapist or doctor explain depression to your husband or print out a few articles from the internet to show him that depression is not a one person (you) illness. Also this is a good website to visit http://www.depressioncenter.org/ it is a depression center at the Univerity of Michigan. Good luck, hope everthing works out.