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I've been living with this secret for a long time. When I get really, really angry or screw up somehow, I hit myself on the head as hard as I can. I usually use my fist and hit right above my ear several times in quick succession. The most recent event happened yesterday evening. I dropped a large container of sugar on the floor and it dumped half of the sugar out. Without a second's hesitation I flew into a rage and slammed my fist into my head about four or five times while I screamed, "You stupid ****ing *****!" I do not hit myself in front of other people. The only time I did was once a few years ago when I thought I had lost my wallet and I lost control in front of a friend of mine. I've mentioned this to my counselors but no one ever seems to think it warrents much attention and we usually move on pretty quickly after I bring it up. Now, I'm no fool. I'm pretty sure a 27 year old man hitting himself in the head is not normal behavior. I don't know if this is considered a self-injury type behavior or not. I'm not sure what it is. I was just wondering if anyone else had experienced the same kind of thing or knew of someone who had.
Last edited by Christina86; Jun 26, 2009 at 02:48 PM.
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