wow deli, this is great! you go girl. it's good to rely on people a bit. i'm horribly independent too and it is sooooo hard to rely on others. ok, i think i would have wanted to poke his eyes with a fork too lol for mentioning erotic transference. i think i'd die right there on the spot. i have never said anything about having the et with my friend i sorta counsel spiritually. i had a dream from God and God was like don't tell him he'll react poorly. i had another dream and God was like he has it too. eek!