thanks for writing back. i almost started crying because it's so easy to get lost in that state of aloneness--feeling like no one gives a d... then, there are these words that are written to you by a faceless name but nevertheless, you know there's another out there who does care. my wrist? well, i guess i'm in such confusion that i didn't clarify the present condition--an open wound but the swelling has gone down and the oozing is less. i just was trying to verbally talk myself out of redoing it before it was even healed because each time it seems to get worse. has anyone else out there had similar experiences to repetitive burning and cutting one area? also, i wrote the book down that you suggested and will check it out at the library. right now i have a few on eating disorders. i'm almost finished with "stick figure". the 100lbs is my own self imposed limit to weight loss because for some reason if i slip below 100, it's a slippery slop that i quickly fall off. i've been in the hospital twice for anorexia. the time after i was put on heart medication was when i set up this 100lb "safety" net. thanks so much for the warm welcome. it really does help to hear that others understand.