Thanks everyone. Sorry, I don't have much time for individual responses today. I don't think it's to a point where I need to change T's, however it's just getting to be such an issue. As for examining my own behavior,I will admit that I am a very closed person and fear getting attached because of abandonment.But I am trying so hard to be open and send emails. I'm trying to connect with her and she has recognized this. I'm making lots or progress.On the other hand, it is hard when she forgets certain things and doesn't respond to my emails. In my emails, I make an effort to communicate with her what I can't with words. She use to be really good with returning emails and assuring me that all is ok.Most of what I write are deep important issues that she ALWAYS ignores. Then I'm left feeling ashamed and embarrassed. Even when I bring letters into session.I write letters all the time because it is easier for me to do so. Also, i don't cross boundaries and if anyrthing T is the one who initates hugs or sitting next to me.

If it's me, how can I change my issues? I just don't understand therapy and wonder if I was at the right place in my life to begin. I guess it's better to fix problems early before it gets worse.