I did the same thing you are!! Wow, it is exciting to be in an affair!! The things you feel are real!! I was so in love with Mark, and in some way, it was real. It was awesomely exciting and I also thought ill of his wife and wanted him for my own. Man was it exciting though. Do you know what happened? I told someone about us and he broke up with me, and I had no way to greive because I couldn't say 'my boyfriend broke up with me..' because he was never my boyfriend! So I coudln't properly greive. Couldn't tell anyone so I coudlnt get any support. To this day I am wounded and that was five years ago Iv;e never gotten over it.