So I talked to T today and asked if she could talk to the new pdoc I'm trying to get with, because he hasn't returned any of my phone calls. So she apparently talked to him.

You know how I know she talked to him? Because he called my mom AT HER WORK to schedule an appointment for ME. So he scheduled the appointment with her, and asked her to come with me for my first appointment. WHAT!?!?!?!?! She told him that I've been going on my own, but he said he likes to talk to the parents. This isn't my first pdoc experience...all he has to do is see how I'm doing, write me my prescription, and I'll be on my way. He doesn't have to get her involved. It's not like i would lie to him just to get meds. i don't even like taking them, but between meds and me jumping off a bridge, I'll take the meds. Also, if anything I say is questionable, he is more than welcome to go talk to T about it...

I am a month shy of being eighteen...I can make my own appointments, no I NEED to make my own appointments. I have a hectic schedule...what if this appointment day doesn't work out for me? They don't know...And asking mom to come in is a HUGE violation for me. She doesn't know half of the s*** that is going on in my life. How can her account be any more accurate than mine?

I am so close to canceling the appointment. I'm already pissed off at him, and I haven't even met him yet. How can I expect to do anything therapeutic with him if I can't trust him in the least. I am SO pissed off right now. I haven't cried in what seems like forever, but I was bawling after I got off the phone with mom.